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be my escape- relient k
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
Friday, May 23, 2003
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nila utama-m502. we rock!
back from obs. dead tired and aching all over, but it was worth it. :) think it's kind of a pity that i only started to enjoy it after the third day? sigh. sure am glad to be back but yet i kinda of miss ubin. :| heh. erm...well. nila utama was a mobile watch. yup..so, we didn't bath for 3 days. from tuesday to thursday. yucks. and we had to re-wear dirty and wet socks and shoes for wet activities. it was er...sickening. -screws up my face- backpacks...weighed a ton 'cause of all the canned food, rice, mess tins, pots etc., hence the aching shoulders! heh. days were pretty..draggy. lots of activities but lots of free time too. did some really nice stuff like kayaking and rock climbing. heh. i like! nights were...well. lonely. spent sitting at the jetty...or lying on my poncho [ws13] thinking of people. it's really peaceful there, sky's really pretty. and it kinda of makes you think more. :| some nights were hot and humid, but there were nights when it was freezing too. funny weather. hmm...let's see. tezing was our buddy watch, and together with raffles and hillary, we made up m502. mobile company 502. heh. our instructor was brandon [aka lucy], tezing's was siew choo, raffles was luke [aka betty] and hillary's was yvonne. brandon's kinda lame, but he's quite nice. heh. took our photos in the gents, standing next to the urinals! ahaha. bin ladens. -shakes head- we rock! heh. erm...and. my watch was made up of 16 people -- sherliynn, kaisin, huimin, thaya, tani, daphne, mitch, jiao yu, jac, julie, xin hui, elizabeth, nadia, lynnette, trisha and me. heh. er...did some packing in the first day, transferring our stuff from our bags into the
karrimore backpacks. and then we trekked to basecamp two and pitched our tents, cooked, ate and slept. did some kayaking the next day, jetty jump [frigging awesome], broke camp, packed then trekked some more, did raft-building and then pitched out tents, cooked and slept. lauched our raft in the quarry on the third day, then trekked through the day to noordin beach and then kayaked for 2 hours to our third campsite. pitched our tents, cooked, washed and spent the night talking to tabi [hillary]. heh. broke camp, packed and kayaked for ard 5 hrs back to base camp 2. did rock climbing [fun, fun, fun] and then pitched our tents, cooked and talked till 1 plus in the morning. washed, packed and broke camp on the morning of the fifth day, then trakked back to the base camp. ate lunch, bathed and bought some stuff. then packed and got our certificates. took some photos and then left ubin. shucks....i miss ubin. :|
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but i miss you more.
i still love you.
do you still love me?